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JueLz_Luv
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Name: JueLz_Luv
Location: Jersey City, New Jersey, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: chiLLin wit my boiiz,Listnin ta music, 8piercingz[and counting..], watchn moviez, hacKySacK,soFtbaLL, basKetbaLL, bowLing, voLLeybaLL, pHotoGrapHy, fiLm, aniMatiOn,art, drawiNg; joHnny depp, angeLina joLie'; return true;" onmouseout="window.status=''; return true;">angeLina joLie, adriana Lima,shannyn sossamon n orLaNdo bLoom are sexxay! Graffiti iz my anti-drug N mucH LoVE to mY beSt friEndz..u kno who u are..love u guys..
Expertise: being boOred..pimpin it[sike]..im pretty good @ chiLLaxin...and i trY mah haRdest to put a smiLe on yo facE n i staii outta dRaMa, i staii tru to myseLf, i staii dOin me, me jes bein me ;)
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  juelzlove
Yahoo:  juelzlove007
AIM:  moreNOVACAiNEpLz
Member Since:
12/31/2002
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| confusion.. i make mistakes..stupid stupid asshole mistakes. k.. theres this girl ive been talking to for about 2 months..shez just about everything i ever wanted..thing is shez not 'mine' to claim. Then, there is this other girl, met her like 2 weeks ago. We did our thing and that was that. not really feeling her anymore. Was i stupid to tell the truth to the girl ive been talking to for 2months about the girl ive known for 2weeks? This girl is someone i just CANT lie to. yet, im the dummy to ruin it by doin the damn thing. anywayz im just venting. my head hurts. i dont think im going to date anyone for a while, i dont want to hurt anyone again. itz krazy how my confusion always ends with stupidity.. | | |
| yeoooooooo i havent been on dis shiit in a hot ass minute..damn kidd look at my last blogg all da way in june B.. well it seems to me that every blogg mentions that i havent been on here in a hott minute lol i need to start updating this thing more often..hmm.. i dont even know where to start so im not going to..lemme post some new fliqqz of me 
iight well thats my update for now..oh wait lemme tell you ::in boricua accent:: wha happened last night at them gay piers yall lol us faggots watched a man drown to his death in that freezing dirty ass water..he was completely helpless and i wish i could see where he was kuz my ass would have dived in there and try to save him..never have i seen a man die in front of my own two eyes..i dont even know if they found the body. the authorities kicked us out the piers before the usual closing time.. so yeh thats about it..the thought of it is just hauntiing me..like who was he? does he have a family? what was in that jansport that was so important to jump over and try to get it? nothing in that bag could have been that important to risk your life that unfortunatley he lost  so anyways im out kids. the end... | | |
| lemme update this iish riigh here..
krazy krazii krayzeee!! damn i havent been in my normal state of mind since forever.. now my irregularness is becoming ehh regular? life is so effing krazy i cant even begin to describe what ive done since..may 14th?? being a lesbian in highschool with no job and car is becoming a challenge..but damn itz 2 in da fuckiin mornin and im on attendance n academic prohbation..i must go 2 skool 2morro which is completely pointless other than the fact that i cant be absent any longer or else i will be doiin the "5 yr plan" of highschool either at votech or w.e. so yeh..i jus figured i'd blogg 4 a quickk sec.. buh wen i have the actual--wait..no i wont say time..kuz i alwayz have time..wen i feel like it, i will update on wtf ive been doiin wit my life..sounds good? okaii then, ta ta! | | |
| WeLL Mothers Day passed..well in fact.. i dunno what passed since the last update..itz been so long and mad shit has either been happening or not..since then the softball season has ended and from what i remember, it was only yesterday was i worried about tryouts and if i will have any type of fun.. apparently i made the team, but i wasnt so happy that coach put me in outfield. not a damn thing came to me and it was mad boring. the dugout was always fun. but nothing can beat the fun we had last year on the bus rides, jus wildin out with the girls. the team did really good this year compared to anything in Snyders softball history. i think it was 9-11 or 10-12 compared to last years 6-12. we lost against teams that we werent suppose to but we did really well to the so called "countys best" we stayed in there with the good teams. and umpires dont really like us so they tend to cheat  our last game was against northbergen. it was 7-2 we lost but i wuld say it was one of our best games. natalie was striking dem bitches out lol. i made the first run home stealing pretty much every base. miranda stole home too. and that was it. game over. no more softball on a highschool team for me again. unless i get leftback buh shhh i dont want that to happen.
oh yeh Mothers day was okay i guess. i made my mom a card and shes been asking me to make her a card for years. she really liked it. it was jus a simple card and a writing with me apologizing for everything and how i really do appreciate everything shes done for me. i only realize how much i really care for her until something happens. YESTERDAY something happened. Friday the 13th never thought something bad will actually happen on a day where its expected. im at the boys baseball game and having a good time cheering because they won 15-0 and are going to states. my cell rings and its my mom calling. im a lil hesitant to pick up because all im thinking is "oh boy why she calling i didnt do anything" but i pick up anyways. her tone in voice was different. shes says "im not feeling so well, i think im having a mild stroke. i called the ambulance and theyre comming to pick me up, im in my car on the boulevard. call ur tito red and tell him for me." My heart dropped. i didnt know what to do. i felt completely hepless. i just wanted so bad to be there with her. i started to tear but i tried to control myself. the baseball game is over and time to go on the bus. everyone on the bus was cheering and mom calls again. shes telling me that shes going into the ER at Greenville hospital and i jus start crying. I tried so hard to hold it in. i really hate the fact that it takes something like this to make me realize that i actually do care more than i know for my mom. its been really hard to get the words out of me to say that i do love her. and i dont want anything to happen to her. i feel as though its my fault. i caused her all this stress. and i feel like shit. and for the first time in years, i prayed.. i prayed a real prayer. i always prayed b4 but never have i truly ment everything. i said "Lord, im sorry that something like this has me comming to you, and i know that u knew that i would only come to u if i ever truly needed something. please be with my mom. please take kare of her. please put her in the rite hands. thank you." and now shes okay. im going to visit her in a few. but i pray nothing like this happens again. Thank You Lord | | |
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life isnt that bad after all..
wait..no..im gonna eat my words by the end of the day 